Anything women do is gay, because gay men like it too. Look at clothes shopping, romance movies. And don't even make me bring up Sex and the City.

I don't think anybody hates you so stop with the emo stuff.

We just don't understand or get you. You should have known what you posted would have been troll bait. This isn't your dairy. I tried acting like the person you described in your first few posts for a reason and you didn't like it. and you were talking about yourself and your own experiences and viewpoints for most of it.

I did disagree with most of it but the way you have been responding to criticism makes me believe that you wouldn't listen anyways. That is the reason for the experiment. If your opinion is so almighty, then how you responded and treated me afterwords would tell me all I need to know about the validity if your current view points. Maybe people see you for what you are, by how you act and are only returning the favor?

I have learned well that sometimes when you want to help someone you can tell them things till you are blue in the face and they won't listen. They may pretend to listen but they won't take your advice or change. People need to want to change, people need to think about it for themselves and resolve it themselves. Only then would you be able to realize the error of your ways.

I don't have an opinion. I didn't know whether or not you were trolling with your response, being completely genuine in your disagreements, and what exactly your "experiment" was if you had one at all. Different possibilities. So, I went with the safest option and gave you whatever you wanted in the most creative way possible... because "I am whatever you say I am and if I wasn't, then why would I say I am? In the paper, the news, everyday I am... I don't know that's just the way I am."

"I have learned well that sometimes when you want to help someone you can tell them things till you are blue in the face and they won't listen. They may pretend to listen but they won't take your advice or change. People need to want to change, people need to think about it for themselves and resolve it themselves. Only then would you be able to realize the error of your ways." - Immortal John Ripper

That is true. Very true.

Everyone has a God Complex, including yourself, and you have gotten on here, baited me with a post, and then proceeded to attempt to use me as your guinea pig because you feel that you have the authority and superiority to pass judgment (experiment)... identified by you informing me the error in my ways.

I DO NOT know everything. I am not a perfect person and I have f_cked up and continue to f_ck up, because I'm not a robot. I'm a human being. Although, I do not fault anyone for treating me like a robot when I never pretended to be anything more or less than the image I created.

As for wanting to help someone, having the audacity to complain about them not accepting the help you never offered is ridiculous.

The intention of the thread was not to paint myself as some damsel in distress victim of **** who is never wrong and always slighted.

I have slighted others. I have hurt others. I have caused others pain. I have lied. I have wasted people's time. I have played games with people and my greatest fault I would have to say is creating and wearing a mask so thick that it became super glued to my face.

The webs we weave...

I'm socially disturbed, but I also don't have to be happy with how I have been treated in the social settings I HAVE been in. I am reflecting on my past experiences so that I can learn from them and evolve so that I am no longer the problem in ANY of my relationships with other people.

You think I wrote this post knowing I could get trolled? I deduced that there was a 9 of 10 chance that I would be trolled based off of statistics. I wrote this post knowing I WOULD get trolled.

Just like when I created the thread "Official Statement" I knew that there were three people who had my Facebook account and there was a possibility one of them could post "personal information" as a counter attack.

When in reality, I'm thinking "You call that trolling?"

Unfortunately, I haven't given you any ammo that would help you get under my skin without already knowing you could and would use it against me at some point. I've GIVEN you everything you have. I've never seriously played chess, but...


Checkmate.

I don't have an opinion. I didn't know whether or not you were trolling with your response, being completely genuine in your disagreements, and what exactly your "experiment" was if you had one at all. Different possibilities. So, I went with the safest option and gave you whatever you wanted in the most creative way possible... because "I am whatever you say I am and if I wasn't, then why would I say I am? In the paper, the news, everyday I am... I don't know that's just the way I am."

"I have learned well that sometimes when you want to help someone you can tell them things till you are blue in the face and they won't listen. They may pretend to listen but they won't take your advice or change. People need to want to change, people need to think about it for themselves and resolve it themselves. Only then would you be able to realize the error of your ways." - Immortal John Ripper

That is true. Very true.

Everyone has a God Complex, including yourself, and you have gotten on here, baited me with a post, and then proceeded to attempt to use me as your guinea pig because you feel that you have the authority and superiority to pass judgment (experiment)... identified by you informing me the error in my ways.

I DO NOT know everything. I am not a perfect person and I have f_cked up and continue to f_ck up, because I'm not a robot. I'm a human being. Although, I do not fault anyone for treating me like a robot when I never pretended to be anything more or less than the image I created.

As for wanting to help someone, having the audacity to complain about them not accepting the help you never offered is ridiculous.

The intention of the thread was not to paint myself as some damsel in distress victim of **** who is never wrong and always slighted.

I have slighted others. I have hurt others. I have caused others pain. I have lied. I have wasted people's time. I have played games with people and my greatest fault I would have to say is creating and wearing a mask so thick that it became super glued to my face.

The webs we weave...

I'm socially disturbed, but I also don't have to be happy with how I have been treated in the social settings I HAVE been in. I am reflecting on my past experiences so that I can learn from them and evolve so that I am no longer the problem in ANY of my relationships with other people.

You think I wrote this post knowing I could get trolled? I deduced that there was a 9 of 10 chance that I would be trolled based off of statistics. I wrote this post knowing I WOULD get trolled.

Just like when I created the thread "Official Statement" I knew that there were three people who had my Facebook account and there was a possibility one of them could post "personal information" as a counter attack.

When in reality, I'm thinking "You call that trolling?"

Unfortunately, I haven't given you any ammo that would help you get under my skin without already knowing you could and would use it against me at some point. I've GIVEN you everything you have. I've never seriously played chess, but...


Checkmate.

The Task of understanding me is too great to lay upon anyone's shoulders. Do what everyone has done and walk away. You will save yourself time and energy.

I am whatever you say I am.

I have slighted others. I have hurt others. I have caused others pain. I have lied. I have wasted people's time. I have played games with people and my greatest fault I would have to say is creating and wearing a mask so thick that it became super glued to my face.

I go to bed and come back to all this? Lighten up guys, seriously.

derrith.....
A real man is not the one you envision. A real man is not afraid to be sweet to a girl. A real man is not afraid to play with his daughter, and if she wants to play make over he will play make over. He will wear the purple girl wig, and let her decorate him and do the girliest thing.

He may be all tatted up and look all thug and tough guy on the outside to fit your definition of a real man but there are plenty of guys like that who are not real men. a real man has no fear. a real man has no embarrassment and lives with no regrets. He can be sweet, kind, gentle, and loving and not afraid to show it.

Rest in peace, Richard Mata. Cousin, My idol, My inspiration.


@ derrith, it is not gay as sota says. You call it that because you simply don't understand.

Yes, but a real man is also smart enough to not get overly involved in situations that are clearly stupid. And here is where I do just that.

This entire thing was stupid, hence why I usually didn't say anything past a bad joke or an innuendo, but I've been dragged into it, and these are the type of people who need some more specific examples as to why this is stupid.


Sota, Heim, Nat, Atiim and whoever the heck else was in HVLP need to listen. I've been involved in internet drama before, each and every time I got involved I said things I regret, and it's all made me feel really stupid.

In my first clan, we kicked out one of our officers because he was an insufferable tool. Like this dude was a complete douche, so a fellow leader and I decided to challenge his new clan to a match, he refused because of some reason that we're also douches (which is probably true). But anyway, stuff was said, which escalated to the kicked member bashing the other leaders deceased wife. After that, we actually started making plans to travel to Scotland to beat the hell out of this guy. He was ex-military, so we started researching forts where he'd be stationed. The next day, I message the kicked member, saying I said things that were quite stupid. Which leads to him messaging the guy he bashed apologizing to him.

By the way, the stuff we said to kicked guy was about his wife too. We called her his google images wife, mainly because there was NO WAY a tool like him could've nabbed a woman this hot. I mean she made some dirty movie actresses look ugly. I still don't believe they're married.

This is the kind of thing you people will start doing if you don't get over this crap. I've even seen a British gaming clan I used to hang out with fall apart due to childish drama like this, and they were competitive, too.

And before you say I'd never do something like that, know that I said much the same thing about cases far less extreme. Broke that promise at least 10 times.

Hahahahaha, you was going to just come to Scotland and bash him, that is priceless and you really thought that you could just find him at a fort. Have you any idea how much the whole thing would have costed you?, the exchange rate doesn't go in your favor either and you can't just stroll into a fort.

You can deny that the pic was of his wife all you want but the chances are that she was mate. Just because you and your buddies are ugly mugs who attract slags, doesn't mean we all are. People who deny stuff like that tend to be the kind of people who wouldn't get any and seem to think that applies to everyone else.

Hahahahaha omg That is hands down the most ridiculous sht i have heard in all my years in online gaming. You slags never cease to amaze me and not in a good way. Are you into that ridiculous swatting fad as well by any chance?.

You'd have gotten battered mate, we are much acclimatised to fighting and you wanted to go starting on a military man?, for your own sake, it is good it never happened as you'd have gone back with no money and broken bones hahahahaha. Even if you did bash him, he'd have enough buddies to find you before you left the airport and it would have been a toilet job mate.

And personally, judging by the quality of intellect within your whole post and its substance, i dont think your parents would have let you anyway hahahahaha.

Anyway, you shouldn't let mugs like that guy annoy you anyway, the same with what i just posted and the same for the potentially butthurt and pathetic crap that you may be thinking of replying with.

Save it because i don't care at all.

Yes, but a real man is also smart enough to not get overly involved in situations that are clearly stupid. And here is where I do just that.

This entire thing was stupid, hence why I usually didn't say anything past a bad joke or an innuendo, but I've been dragged into it, and these are the type of people who need some more specific examples as to why this is stupid.


Sota, Heim, Nat, Atiim and whoever the heck else was in HVLP need to listen. I've been involved in internet drama before, each and every time I got involved I said things I regret, and it's all made me feel really stupid.

In my first clan, we kicked out one of our officers because he was an insufferable tool. Like this dude was a complete douche, so a fellow leader and I decided to challenge his new clan to a match, he refused because of some reason that we're also douches (which is probably true). But anyway, stuff was said, which escalated to the kicked member bashing the other leaders deceased wife. After that, we actually started making plans to travel to Scotland to beat the hell out of this guy. He was ex-military, so we started researching forts where he'd be stationed. The next day, I message the kicked member, saying I said things that were quite stupid. Which leads to him messaging the guy he bashed apologizing to him.

By the way, the stuff we said to kicked guy was about his wife too. We called her his google images wife, mainly because there was NO WAY a tool like him could've nabbed a woman this hot. I mean she made some dirty movie actresses look ugly. I still don't believe they're married.

This is the kind of thing you people will start doing if you don't get over this crap. I've even seen a British gaming clan I used to hang out with fall apart due to childish drama like this, and they were competitive, too.

And before you say I'd never do something like that, know that I said much the same thing about cases far less extreme. Broke that promise at least 10 times.

Wow.... after reading all this, I can safely assure you I thought and said much of the same thing to myself. But despite what your incessant rambling means, I'm at least proud that i settled it with him like a man instead of doing what I would've done.
And these people I'm addressing this to need a good example of what not to do over a VIDEO GAME.

Yes, I did also look up the price, I could've afforded it.

And on the bright side, I did learn a few very interesting things about the forts in Scotland. For example, did you know that Fort George was originally created in the 18th century to repel the Jacobite uprising?

I still do intend to visit Scotland, but not for the same reasons. It looks like a nice place to go on a tourism trip. Hell, I might even look him up and buy him a drink.

Idk why you put my name on here? I don't regret a thing nor should I. I just pointed out that she said we didn't have to read this thread when obviously she knew who resides in the war room. If she didn't want drama she didn't have to post this but that was HER choice. I don't hate her and I don't have a problem with her which is why I took so long to post In This thread then I got too annoyed when reading it.

The reason is because you, along with all the other people I've mentioned have been going about this every single thread I've seen involving ex-HVLP. You've all been pretty much running in circles with these issues. It's getting worse every time I check a thread Nat makes.

I also mentioned those people because if you squad with them, you'll find they're pretty cool guys/gals (except for Atiim, but that's just because he supports the slaves). It just seems stupid to me that you guys would get all worked up over this kind of thing instead of trying to work it out.

But anyway, I've said my piece. I'm done with this thread.

The reason is because you, along with all the other people I've mentioned have been going about this every single thread I've seen involving ex-HVLP. You've all been pretty much running in circles with these issues. It's getting worse every time I check a thread Nat makes.

I also mentioned those people because if you squad with them, you'll find they're pretty cool guys/gals (except for Atiim, but that's just because he supports the slaves). It just seems stupid to me that you guys would get all worked up over this kind of thing instead of trying to work it out.

But anyway, I've said my piece. I'm done with this thread.

Idk why you put my name on here? I don't regret a thing nor should I. I just pointed out that she said we didn't have to read this thread when obviously she knew who resides in the war room. If she didn't want drama she didn't have to post this but that was HER choice. I don't hate her and I don't have a problem with her which is why I took so long to post In This thread then I got too annoyed when reading it.

**** Dr. Phil. That guy has no idea what he is talking about.

I need to make a Dr. John Ripper alt.

Way ahead of you bro.

Dr Ripper, I beat my wife constantly every night with a my hands! How do I stop!

Taking it seriously led me to talk to black all night. I have come to understand her better as a person and she got to understand some alternative points of view. We were able to reflect upon things and talk about real things. Sometimes a person needs a real talk. Not everything needs to be a joke or a game. Because we actually accomplished something.

I think me and black have become better friends because of it. All of this, and her attitude, her words... it all makes alot more sense but not to say that she was right in all of it but in the end we are all just human. I have no ill feelings towards black, although I did not have any before. I believe she have come to understand a few things through our talks. I apologize if I was a little harsh but I regret nothing.


In my forum godly opinion, I think we should forgive each other, and let this thread die already. << By this I do not just mean me, but everyone on here. Let's start fresh. I can vouch for black. There is no need for details but She has learned a few things about herself and has given me some things to think about. In the end we both gained a little bit. Now that we have spoken, I know how I can help her and she is ready and willing. Like I said, we are all only human. Everyone makes mistakes. Myself included.


I declare this thread done and over with... now to wait 6 months for it to reach page 2 of this dead war room.

Dr Ripper, I beat my wife constantly every night with a my hands! How do I stop!

Yes, I needed our talk last night. IDK who Billy is, but he's a cool guy.

Now you understand. Unfortunately for everyone else not in that convo, I will continue to just look like the absolute f_cktard I can be at times and I'm surprisingly okay with that. >.<

The Reason by Hoobastank <3

Idk why you put my name on here? I don't regret a thing nor should I. I just pointed out that she said we didn't have to read this thread when obviously she knew who resides in the war room. If she didn't want drama she didn't have to post this but that was HER choice. I don't hate her and I don't have a problem with her which is why I took so long to post In This thread then I got too annoyed when reading it.

Natty, you are a master troll. You got all of them to respond in eloquent and sophisticated ways at a expense of their time and dignity. I for one applaud you.

I think you are a sexy man heim.

Don't you bring the D into this conversation, Heim!

>.< I just needed help.

And, yes, everything I write I want you to read. Everything I say, I want you to listen. Because, I happen to care about you.
Excuse my dumb f_cktard moments. I don't expect people to have patience with me through some of this ****, but the ones who do don't regret it.

If you want to know more about me...

I already lost you. There's nothing else for me to lose.

I have been a dumb f_ck. But, you know, f_ck the mask thing! Deep inside I am just that sweet girl you know that got confused and scared. And when people allow fear to control them, bad things happened. I ended up slitting my own wrists because I didn't want to be stabbed in the back by you. VERY CHILDISH. The worst thing I have ever done, legitimately.