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B1ack ice
Holdfast Syndicate Amarr Empire
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Posted - 2014.10.09 20:39:00 -
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Well, since the forums are practically dead and I'm always on a soul searching campaign I thought I'd use the war room as an opportunity to reflect on some things I've been left to contemplate.
Through experience, observation of real life scenarios, and never ending research into subjects that continue to badger me through the nights I have found myself wanting more intel than I currently have.
I don't understand people.
In all things, I always make it a point to do the right thing. I don't care what I do as long as I'm in the right and whatever I did or did not do was for the right reasons. You'd think doing something for a good cause would give you a good effect, but to quote Jurassic Park (Dare I?) "Some of the worst things imaginable have been done with the best intentions."
AKA Positive cause = Negative effect
So, I've been left to debate what is right? What is wrong?
My communication with people sucks. I find myself becoming easily frustrated, annoyed, and upset when people ask me stupid questions. By stupid questions, I mean when someone asks me a question and I think that the answer is obvious. When someone questions me as to what I'm doing and why I'm doing it I become angry because I'm "obviously" doing what I have deduced to be "right" for the "right" reasons which I have already cut apart and analyzed intensely to make sure they are supported by logic, understanding, reason, and rationality. That is who I am and that is what I enjoy doing. My focus in everything is always going to be to find some truth that's going to challenge me into thinking my way out and/or evolving.
If you're going to be bad, be bad with a purpose.
PSN: I-NINJA-ALL-NITE
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B1ack ice
Holdfast Syndicate Amarr Empire
375
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Posted - 2014.10.09 20:39:00 -
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So, with all this in mind I began to become angry. People questioning my integrity and trying to box me up into this stereotype that I never fit. And why were they doing this? Because my actions did not reflect on who I am at all. So, inadvertently, I became my own worst enemy. Aren't we all?
I absolutely 100% hate tying bad and otherwise irrational behavior onto "medical" conditions, but I was talking with a friend and telling him about how I eat. He then proceeded to make a comment about how I must have extremely low blood sugar. I didn't really give a ****, because I just view such things as inconveniences and/or obstacles that through ignorance will cease to exist. Then I stopped and actually asked what that even means. He told me that a low blood sugar causes a person to be sick, tired, depressed, and have mood swings/act irrationally.
I began to contemplate this. Is this a factor? Is it worth me looking into it further?
I myself had begun to wonder what I was doing and why I was doing it.
Thus, I deduced that with people it is not going to ever be that simple. There isn't just a reason for doing something and then the act itself. There is whatever is behind that thought process. There are so many innumerable factors. All different. And behind these factors are more factors that factor into that. A huge complex process. This is a lot like what I have discovered about choices. It's not just one choice, it's several small choices we don't consider which build up into something else entirely.
Let me ask some of you this:
Often men have come to me and asked me "Why do women have to play these "games"? (I'm just using this as an example because it relates, although maybe it's not just a "sex" thing. I honestly hope it isn't.)
Men complain that women say things they don't mean, say nothing at all, and then get mad at them because they didn't do something.... whatever that something may be.
Women and/or girls (most of us) are brought up into this society of older women who gossip. Now, when I say gossip I don't just mean "Who got an abortion last week" or whatever I mean they pass around how unreliable men are in whatever different form that comes in. A man said this and did this, this man cheated on this woman, this man left his wife and kids out of no where, this man beat his girlfriend after being loving and kind at the start of said relationship, etc etc etc. It goes on and on and girls get to grow up listening to this on repeat.
Every new generation does not want to be like the last, am I right? So, in order to prevent these "horrible" things from happening to us and making mistakes like these women made we came up with these games so we can create an hypothesis, experiment, and then move onto forming a theory.
I did and said something that I did not mean, because I thought to myself "This person knows that I don't actually mean what I'm saying based off of what I've said and done all of this time" and however he responds to this, because his actions are contradicting his words, is going to be authentic/sincere. I can make a good judgment off of this. I can form a hypothesis to have better understanding of this person and the situation at hand. Is it safe to put myself at more risk or do I actually have grounds for concern? I guess it is always going to go back to trolling... doing something dramatic and overexaggerating tone, speech, and actions in order to draw a reaction out of another person.
But then logically I realized that that isn't going to ever work. It is definitely a brilliant idea, but in all relationships I'm pretty sure what everyone is looking for is sincerity from the other person. So, if you want sincerity from someone you have to give it yourself in all things. Not give it in calculated measurements. >.<
What is right? If you continue to find a problem, take it out of the equation in order to find the solution. My problem is constantly with other people. I have made many bad decisions based off of doing right by the other person, when in actuality maybe doing right by them would be doing right by me. I wouldn't find myself accidentally having two faces.
I have done so many things for very defined reasons but the end result made the former null and void. You do something for someone and then they're gone because you did.
If you're going to be bad, be bad with a purpose.
PSN: I-NINJA-ALL-NITE
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Leadfoot10
Molon Labe. General Tso's Alliance
1666
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Posted - 2014.10.09 20:41:00 -
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Perhaps your frustration with stupid questions lies not with the stupid question, but your inability to articulate the logic you find so obvious. |
Leadfoot10
Molon Labe. General Tso's Alliance
1666
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Posted - 2014.10.09 20:46:00 -
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p.s. As a male, I gave up trying to understand women a long time ago. Just like I gave up trying to understand Quantum Mechanics -- the **** was simply too hard for me to understand. Women simply are wired differently and any male attempt to rationalize or understand them fails miserably, in my experience. |
B1ack ice
Holdfast Syndicate Amarr Empire
375
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Posted - 2014.10.09 20:48:00 -
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Leadfoot10 wrote:Perhaps your frustration with stupid questions lies not with the stupid question, but your inability to articulate the logic you find so obvious.
Well, I do things for people, it backfires on me, and then I wonder why I did something so f_cking stupid and unlike me in the first place.
The logic would have made perfect sense had everything gone according to plan.
But that's illogical in itself, trying to control things. I have deduced that the only logical way to lead one's life is to be yourself, do things for yourself, and see what happens. Because if you do things for others, others leave you, and you lose yourself in the process, nothing adds up. A house divided against itself cannot stand.
If you're going to be bad, be bad with a purpose.
PSN: I-NINJA-ALL-NITE
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Kaughst
Nyain San General Tso's Alliance
632
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Posted - 2014.10.09 20:49:00 -
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I don't pick up on alot of social ques or just don't listen well so I just nod my head and say 'ok' and 'sorry'. That's why I like to suggest to people that shaving a kangaroo is very hard and is a task that should not be taken lightly.
You know you have at least thought about cow tipping. They know, and they're out to settle the score.
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B1ack ice
Holdfast Syndicate Amarr Empire
375
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Posted - 2014.10.09 20:52:00 -
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Kaughst wrote:I don't pick up on alot of social ques or just don't listen well so I just nod my head and say 'ok' and 'sorry'. That's why I like to suggest to people that shaving a kangaroo is very hard and is a task that should not be taken lightly.
LOL I freaking love you Kaughst. You are a great person.
If you're going to be bad, be bad with a purpose.
PSN: I-NINJA-ALL-NITE
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Leadfoot10
Molon Labe. General Tso's Alliance
1666
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Posted - 2014.10.09 20:57:00 -
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B1ack ice wrote:But that's illogical in itself, trying to control things. I have deduced that the only logical way to lead one's life is to be yourself, do things for yourself, and see what happens. Because if you do things for others, others leave you, and you lose yourself in the process, nothing adds up. A house divided against itself cannot stand.
In the end I think you will find doing things only for oneself is a hollow experience.
It may be a natural reaction to what you've experienced in life, but having the pendulum sway all the way in the other direction is not all that different than what happened to the nerf/buff of the Flaylock.
Eventually, and just like the Flaylock, you'll find the right balance. |
B1ack ice
Holdfast Syndicate Amarr Empire
375
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Posted - 2014.10.09 21:04:00 -
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Leadfoot10 wrote:B1ack ice wrote:But that's illogical in itself, trying to control things. I have deduced that the only logical way to lead one's life is to be yourself, do things for yourself, and see what happens. Because if you do things for others, others leave you, and you lose yourself in the process, nothing adds up. A house divided against itself cannot stand. In the end I think you will find doing things only for oneself is a hollow experience. It may be a natural reaction to what you've experienced in life, but having the pendulum sway all the way in the other direction is not all that different than what happened to the nerf/buff of the Flaylock. Eventually, and just like the Flaylock, you'll find the right balance.
Well, I mean that from now on when I do things for others it should be thought out. For example, if I do this for someone with no expectations out of them but because this is what I want to do. Everyone's happy in the end, regardless.
If you do something that is solely reliant on the other person's performance, then it's best not to do it at all, because at the end of the day you have to live with the choices you make and the consequences of your choices. People fail you all the time and they're not going to be the ones who are judged based off of your actions. Do something with complete sincerity because otherwise it's not you that's doing anything anyways. And doing whatever it is for someone else doesn't even matter, because it wasn't you who was doing it.
If you're going to be bad, be bad with a purpose.
PSN: I-NINJA-ALL-NITE
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GRIM GEAR
410
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Posted - 2014.10.09 21:50:00 -
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I was reading that with the Dialect of Dr Brennan off Bones. Well it's not my place to say this as I am not the best communicator, though food for thought may haps you overthink too much which in itself can lead to sticky situations.
Don't take anything I have written to heart as I have no idea what I am talking about. I do see where you are coming from though it's hard to try and please everyone' yourself included, I think finding a median, per se meeting halfway might help.
Excuse my bad punctuation and spelling thank you.
Wow I should of read the whole thread.......... I am late to the party as usual.
One day you will wake up and realize that time waits for no one.
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B1ack ice
Holdfast Syndicate Amarr Empire
376
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Posted - 2014.10.09 22:01:00 -
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GRIM GEAR wrote:I was reading that with the Dialect of Dr Brennan off Bones . Well it's not my place to say this as I am not the best communicator, though food for thought may haps you overthink too much which in itself can lead to sticky situations. Don't take anything I have written to heart as I have no idea what I am talking about. I do see where you are coming from though it's hard to try and please everyone' yourself included, I think finding a median, per se meeting halfway might help. Excuse my bad punctuation and spelling thank you. Wow I should of read the whole thread.......... I am late to the party as usual.
LOL I've been compared to her character before. >.<
You are right. I do "overthink". I like thinking as deeply into everything as possible.
If you're going to be bad, be bad with a purpose.
PSN: I-NINJA-ALL-NITE
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Derrith Erador
Fatal Absolution
2837
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Posted - 2014.10.10 01:40:00 -
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B1ack ice wrote: Well, I do things for people.
I like where this is going. Keep on.
FAs official perv and lech. My dream is to turn 80 and become a dirty old man chasing skirts.
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SoTa Senpai
Ametat Security Amarr Empire
318
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Posted - 2014.10.10 02:18:00 -
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Leadfoot10 wrote:Perhaps your frustration with stupid questions lies not with the stupid question, but your inability to articulate the logic you find so obvious. BINGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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CUSE TOWN333
KILL-EM-QUICK RISE of LEGION
1720
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Posted - 2014.10.10 03:00:00 -
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B1ack ice wrote:Leadfoot10 wrote:B1ack ice wrote:But that's illogical in itself, trying to control things. I have deduced that the only logical way to lead one's life is to be yourself, do things for yourself, and see what happens. Because if you do things for others, others leave you, and you lose yourself in the process, nothing adds up. A house divided against itself cannot stand. In the end I think you will find doing things only for oneself is a hollow experience. It may be a natural reaction to what you've experienced in life, but having the pendulum sway all the way in the other direction is not all that different than what happened to the nerf/buff of the Flaylock. Eventually, and just like the Flaylock, you'll find the right balance. Well, I mean that from now on when I do things for others it should be thought out. For example, if I do this for someone with no expectations out of them but because this is what I want to do. Everyone's happy in the end, regardless. If you do something that is solely reliant on the other person's performance, then it's best not to do it at all, because at the end of the day you have to live with the choices you make and the consequences of your choices. People fail you all the time and they're not going to be the ones who are judged based off of your actions. Do something with complete sincerity because otherwise it's not you that's doing anything anyways. And doing whatever it is for someone else doesn't even matter, because it wasn't you. and that right there is they key. doing stuff for others is doing something for yourself without expectation of anything in return. once you are comfortable being yourself and don't base your emotions on the way other people receive you you will be fine. and as far as girls playing games men only tolerate that for so long because ain't no body got time for that we just tolerate it a little longer if the girl is hot.
KEQ diplomat/ intel /GC officer
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D4GG3R
Opus Arcana Covert Intervention
461
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Posted - 2014.10.10 03:45:00 -
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No comment:)
I'm pretty plain.
I watch anime for the boobs
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Maur'ce Brutar
Merry and Hell
8
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Posted - 2014.10.10 14:11:00 -
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"They were so caught up with if they could, they never stopped to think if they should."
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Everything Dies
LIFE IS KILLING ME
1007
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Posted - 2014.10.10 20:31:00 -
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Leadfoot10 wrote:p.s. As a male, I gave up trying to understand women a long time ago. Just like I gave up trying to understand Quantum Mechanics -- the **** was simply too hard for me to understand. Women simply are wired differently and any male attempt to rationalize or understand them fails miserably, in my experience.
"The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing, Jon Snow." Socrates, in the 10th book of a Song of Ice and Fire
...I may have that wrong, somehow.
Mike Patton is the greatest singer in music. Proof
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Everything Dies
LIFE IS KILLING ME
1007
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Posted - 2014.10.10 20:33:00 -
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Maur'ce Brutar wrote:"They were so caught up with if they could, they never stopped to think if they should."
"That is one big pile of sh*t."
Mike Patton is the greatest singer in music. Proof
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Regnier Feros
G0DS AM0NG MEN General Tso's Alliance
102
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Posted - 2014.10.10 21:34:00 -
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I like pie do you like pie because i hate pie & I like muffins.
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Eugene Killmore
Red Star. EoN.
427
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Posted - 2014.10.10 21:44:00 -
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Ok the war room is officialy dead when random dames be making dear diary posts Da duq outta here.
EoN. #1 alliance of ALL TIME undefeated in bloc warfare ;)
Forever repping that Red*Star 666 illuminati thug mafia.
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B1ack ice
Holdfast Syndicate Amarr Empire
379
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Posted - 2014.10.10 23:46:00 -
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Eugene Killmore wrote:Ok the war room is officialy dead when random dames be making dear diary posts Da duq outta here.
Never heard of you. Nuff said.
Seriously though, what is it with you people?
The name of my post is literally "You don't have to read." LOL
You just gave me another view and took the time out of your day to bump my post. #YouTubePeople
Thank you?
If you're going to be bad, be bad with a purpose.
PSN: I-NINJA-ALL-NITE
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SoTa Senpai
Ametat Security Amarr Empire
322
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Posted - 2014.10.11 00:07:00 -
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B1ack ice wrote:Eugene Killmore wrote:Ok the war room is officialy dead when random dames be making dear diary posts Da duq outta here. Never heard of you. Nuff said. Seriously though, what is it with you people? The name of my post is literally "You don't have to read." LOL You just gave me another view and took the time out of your day to bump my post. #YouTubePeople Thank you? Post bumping doesn't really mean anything in a sub section that gets 0 new threads daily almost. It'll always be on top.
And what's with people posting threads in the wrong section and then feeling justified for it because they used some dumb phrase in the OP or title?
There's a lockeroom for these kind of things for a reason, because we expect the content found here to be of a certain sort, so even when you put 'don't read' you wouldn't expect an emo rampage post.
So don't go down the route of 'you people' when you fit a far worse category of 'them' Lol |
B1ack ice
Holdfast Syndicate Amarr Empire
379
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Posted - 2014.10.11 00:51:00 -
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SoTa Senpai wrote:B1ack ice wrote:Eugene Killmore wrote:Ok the war room is officialy dead when random dames be making dear diary posts Da duq outta here. Never heard of you. Nuff said. Seriously though, what is it with you people? The name of my post is literally "You don't have to read." LOL You just gave me another view and took the time out of your day to bump my post. #YouTubePeople Thank you? Post bumping doesn't really mean anything in a sub section that gets 0 new threads daily almost. It'll always be on top. And what's with people posting threads in the wrong section and then feeling justified for it because they used some dumb phrase in the OP or title? There's a lockeroom for these kind of things for a reason, because we expect the content found here to be of a certain sort, so even when you put 'don't read' you wouldn't expect an emo rampage post. So don't go down the route of 'you people' when you fit a far worse category of 'them' Lol
You are so full of **** it's coming out of your mouth. Especially considering you're in a different category then I am entirely, in a bad way. Think about it. You no longer play the game, but feel the need to post on it's forums at all. You hate DUST 514, but you still talk about it. It's a broken subject.
Usually the purpose of your troll here would to be to draw a reaction out of me, which you have succeeded in. Although, I regret to inform you that, you have indubitably failed, because I'm not addressing you as either my superior or my equal but you in your rightful place. Which is beneath me.
You tell me to get on your level, but I'd have to dig so deep into the earth to get there that the heat from the Earth's core would incinerate my ass.
The only butthurt I've ever been was trying to downgrade so I could hopefully get you a ladder and help you figure out how to climb.
Wuv you boo. <3
Signed,
B1ack ass
If you're going to be bad, be bad with a purpose.
PSN: I-NINJA-ALL-NITE
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Derrith Erador
Fatal Absolution
2845
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Posted - 2014.10.11 01:04:00 -
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This thread is so white.
FAs official perv and lech. My dream is to turn 80 and become a dirty old man chasing skirts.
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Everything Dies
LIFE IS KILLING ME
1007
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Posted - 2014.10.11 01:16:00 -
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B1ack ice wrote: You no longer play the game, but feel the need to post on it's forums at all. You hate DUST 514, but you still talk about it. It's a broken subject.
To be fair, Sota did come on yesterday and pushed the number of people in the anime empire chat to 3. Was too shy to squad up with him, though, lest he inform the forums of my true scrub-ness.
Mike Patton is the greatest singer in music. Proof
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SoTa Senpai
Ametat Security Amarr Empire
325
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Posted - 2014.10.11 01:16:00 -
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B1ack ice wrote:SoTa Senpai wrote:B1ack ice wrote:Eugene Killmore wrote:Ok the war room is officialy dead when random dames be making dear diary posts Da duq outta here. Never heard of you. Nuff said. Seriously though, what is it with you people? The name of my post is literally "You don't have to read." LOL You just gave me another view and took the time out of your day to bump my post. #YouTubePeople Thank you? Post bumping doesn't really mean anything in a sub section that gets 0 new threads daily almost. It'll always be on top. And what's with people posting threads in the wrong section and then feeling justified for it because they used some dumb phrase in the OP or title? There's a lockeroom for these kind of things for a reason, because we expect the content found here to be of a certain sort, so even when you put 'don't read' you wouldn't expect an emo rampage post. So don't go down the route of 'you people' when you fit a far worse category of 'them' Lol You are so full of **** it's coming out of your mouth. Especially considering you're in a different category then I am entirely, in a bad way. Think about it. You no longer play the game, but feel the need to post on it's forums at all. You hate DUST 514, but you still talk about it. It's a broken subject. Usually the purpose of your troll here would to be to draw a reaction out of me, which you have succeeded in. Although, I regret to inform you that, you have indubitably failed, because I'm not addressing you as either my superior or my equal but you in your rightful place. Which is beneath me. AKA Justification to you is null and void due to the indisputable facts. You tell me to get on your level, but I'd have to dig so deep into the earth to get there that the heat from the Earth's core would incinerate my ass. The only butthurt I've ever been was trying to downgrade so I could hopefully get you a ladder and help you figure out how to climb. Wuv you boo. <3 Signed, B1ack ass Oh, I thought this thread was about YOU. I thought I'd at least keep to the thread topic since you're going to misplace where it belongs, may as well enjoy it.
But even that seems to upset your poor little feelings.
Btw - I probably log on more then you have this week. LOL.
Please get on my level, it's in the center of the earth, as you said, because I'm the center of your world. |
SoTa Senpai
Ametat Security Amarr Empire
325
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Posted - 2014.10.11 01:18:00 -
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Everything Dies wrote:B1ack ice wrote: You no longer play the game, but feel the need to post on it's forums at all. You hate DUST 514, but you still talk about it. It's a broken subject. To be fair, Sota did come on yesterday and pushed the number of people in the anime empire chat to 3. Was too shy to squad up with him, though, lest he inform the forums of my true scrub-ness. Shy?
It's not like I attack everyone around me indiscriminately. I just have my own reasons that select few really know about.
Everything I do is for a reason and purpose and most insults generality thrown at people around here are lies so that conflicts don't get personal.
I like meeting new people! So next time you see me throw me a squad invite :D |
CookieStein
G I A N T
347
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Posted - 2014.10.11 01:20:00 -
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B1ack ice wrote:you in your rightful place. Which is beneath me.
Always suspected Sota was a 'bottom'.
[GI4NT] CEO / Retired<3XXXD> Dust Head
@CookieStein Skype: Cookie_Stein
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SoTa Senpai
Ametat Security Amarr Empire
329
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Posted - 2014.10.11 01:22:00 -
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CookieStein wrote:B1ack ice wrote:you in your rightful place. Which is beneath me. Always suspected Sota was a 'bottom'. She nailed me on the head with that one, I prefer she did all the work. |
Heimdallr69
Nyain San General Tso's Alliance
3776
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Posted - 2014.10.11 01:25:00 -
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SoTa Senpai wrote:CookieStein wrote:B1ack ice wrote:you in your rightful place. Which is beneath me. Always suspected Sota was a 'bottom'. She nailed me on the head with that one, I prefer she did all the work. Best way to go =ƒÿÜ
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