Dreis ShadowWeaver
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Posted - 2015.08.31 21:59:00 -
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Tebu Gan wrote:Alcina Nektaria wrote:CUSE TOWN333 wrote:this MU thing can't be working because putting 15 redline snipers on my team or useless window lickers is got to be a scotty troll or something. maybe there just aren't many skilled players in the game anymore but dam where does scotty find these people. send all useless players back to the battle academy for a minimum of 6 months. make a stat tracker if they go under 600 WP and get 1 kill and 10 deaths match after match they send em back to the academy. better yet make a new server for pro redline snipers, people who don't put down uplinks, high ground campers who never go for the letter, people below a 1.0 KDR besides logis. or better yet make it like bf3 were we can buy a server and have administration rights to kick useless players making the game boring and never intense fights. RANT over. I have worked VERY hard for my .94 kd/r THANK YOU VERY MUCH  Ugh, I cringe anytime I go negative, outside of PC that is.
I kick my own arse every time I go below my current weekly K/D.
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Dreis ShadowWeaver
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Posted - 2015.09.01 21:59:00 -
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Eruditus 920 wrote:Dreis ShadowWeaver wrote:
I kick my own arse every time I go below my current weekly K/D.
Dreis, how much of your real life self worth do you derive from DUST 514? Wayyyy too much.
Eruditus 920 wrote:And how important is it to you that other players know you are good and tell you that you are good at this game? Far too important to be considered healthy.
Eruditus 920 wrote:Because from where I sit, it seems like a lot.
Alright, let me give you an insight into the real Dreis. I mean, **** is it sad, but it will help you to understand.
I'm 16, just finished Secondary school in the UK. I have cripplingly low self-esteem and very few close friends. I've never been able to fit in well with others. I've had social anxiety for a while and it's been getting worse, to the point where today when I took the train to London with my family, I could barely talk. I'm also nearly certain that I have an autism spectrum disorder.
I constantly compare myself to others, and if someone happens to be better than me at something, anything, then I feel like an inferior person overall. I constantly feel worthless. I'm afraid of failure, and so I'll often just not even try to begin with. I feel like my worth is entirely determined by what others think of me.
You'd be surprised though, because if you knew me IRL, you'd never guess any of this. I'm always smiling, though the smile is always fake. I can never be myself and speak my mind, because the public ridicule is so strong.
This is where DUST comes in.
See, in DUST, none of this matters. In DUST, I can be someone else. I've easily made 10x as many friends online as I have IRL. I can be someone prominent and powerful, and nearly all of it is determined by in-game ability. But it still hurts so much when I fail, or when someone tells me that I'm not 'gud'.
That's why I care so much about DUST, really. I'm sh!t at real life, so if I'm sh!t in a virtual world too, I have nothing.
Hope that's helped you understand a bit! 
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