"I have big ideas, but as they develop, I realize how I'll never have the resources or time to achieve them."

That right there. Never say those words bruh. You do not know exactly what the future holds, you could be in a totally different position a year from now. My advice to you, don't give up, never give up. You may realize and see your ideas to fruition.

I don't have any fancy smancy insight, I just have the most corny words, don't give up on those dreams. Keep moving forward.

It is the opposite for me. I always feel like I could learn more. I went through a lot to get to the point I am now. Joined the military right after high school and had my experiences traveling the world. Did my time and when I felt it was time to go I moved on. I never planned to make it a permanent thing so I was always thinking ahead. When I separated I used what I earned to pay my way through college. Due to the types of hours I worked, it was very difficult to have time for school while I was in. For what I wanted to learn, I wanted to be on campus for. So I just waited until the right moment came along. My real goal was to be a game designer. I didn't know much about it at first but over time I became very proficient while learning the different types of software. Even when I received praise for my work, I was never 100% happy with it. I was always thinking on how to improve on what I have done. I was always watching tutorials or asking questions about what could be done differently to make it better. When I did traditional drawing, I spent many hours practicing them daily.

I didn't have all the resources others schools had and I made do with what I had. Worked off demos and other work arounds to get what I needed when resources were limited. My former instructor noticed that even though I had very little to work with, I was working harder and putting out better work than the people with the advantage in technology. Actually walked up to me after watching me build models and said that to me. What keeps me going is never truly being completely happy with what I do and always striving to improve. The second I get the feeling I can't do anything better, something is wrong. That is the one thing that makes me want to do more. Without that, you will have a hard time getting towards a goal.

Finished college many years later and graduated with honors. Even though I was in game design, I didn't play games when it came to getting through school. Others would mess around and not take it seriously. I was always propped in front of a book or looking at tutorials, even in my free time. It payed off though when I aced every single exam. The others would look at me with a confused stare, trying to figure out how I was doing it. The main reason for that is I always dedicated time to what I needed to do and I never waited until the last minute. When I needed to get something done, I immediately got started on it. After all I have experienced over the years, I always try to find ways around problems. The answer may not always be right in front of you but over time it will hit you. There will always be barriers that will get in your way, you simply have to be stubborn enough to keep trying to get around them lol. If you stop, it is pretty much the end of any accomplishment.

Even after all of that, I am still improving on what I have learned over the years. Kept a lot of the habits of researching what I want to know and I put time aside for it. In the end it will be up to you. Just don't ever stop trying. I am doing the same to this day and looking forward. You have to slowly work your way up, start small and over time when you are able, do bigger things.

Do you guys ever feel like there's nothing left to learn, nothing left to prove, nothing novel to seek and the day to day has turned into an incessant blur of normalcy? Maybe I'm a thrill seeker, but I thought that life had the potential of being exciting and engaging like anything could happen.

Real life has let me down, and I have done things that many would consider to be living on the edge. I was hoping for some solid video game entertainment as technology improved, but everywhere I look, I'm disappointed, disenchanted and underwhelmed. What is wrong with me? I try to focus on the positive, but I feel like nothing ever meets my expectations any more.

I have big ideas, but as they develop, I realize how I'll never have the resources or time to achieve them. Am I missing out on some inspiring secret, or am I realistic in thinking that the future will be a sequence of meaningless boredom?

Thank you for those of you who will respond with thought provoking comments like "can I haz your ISK" and "go kill yourself". It is evidence of the zombie epedimic - people too daft or afraid to think of the implications of lacking the next step, a higher level, or a personal breakthrough.

To anyone with actual insight, your views are welcome, although I have thought about this topic from every angle imaginable. The best I can hope for is some honest commiseration.

Peace, my Dust brothers and sisters.