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Immortal John Ripper 25087	Posted - 2014.10.14 12:58:00 - [1] - Quote Lately I have been very sad. The War Room is no longer as entertaining as it used to be. People have gotten soft, and I sense that I may be falling victim to this as well as I have now started my own diary. My friends have moved on and I left to be lost and all alone. So here I sulk, reading the works of Edgar Allen Poe... Quote: But as in ethics, evil is a consequence of good, so in fact, out of joy is sorrow born. Either the memory of past bliss is the anguish of today, or the agonies which are have their origin in the ecstasies which might have been. I recognize the good that has been done for this game, yet I remain a bitter vet. I used to find so much joy destroying my enemies, now only sorrow remains. I remember all my previous victories, my friends, my talent, those drunken nights of past bliss and all I feel is anguish. Those times are over. I had such high hopes for this game of what it might have been, could have been. Even with it's drawbacks, I thought this game had potential. CCP advertised this game as unique with an eve link... I never cared for it. The true uniqueness was my friends, the drama, the risk and loss of it all. Can I conquer it all? When we reach the top, who will betray whom to further themselves and their own agenda. This was not just a simple cod shooter. The politics of it were real. The drama was real. The struggle was real. It was fun to watch the story of Dust 514 unfold. However this story feels like is is coming to an end. I often complain about how most stories in mainstream media usually end with a happy ending, yet when I encounter one.... Could it be that it is because I am a part of this story that I complain so? Could there be some sort of flaw in my point of view? Is there a better way for me to cope or approach this ordeal? Throughout dust's history, I have seen many brilliant ideas on these forums go ignored. It would seem that the problems that are cried about the most are the only ones addressed, and while I understand that they want to keep the the player base happy... CCP must realize that they cannot make everyone happy. Plagued by constant buffs and nerfs that has held back development of this game. Plagued by Glitches. Plagued by moronic ideas implemented by CCP thinking they were being innovative but only served to fustrate the player base. How can a company manage to ** off 90% of the player base with every update? How could we blindly stand here disappointed update after update? I have had many brilliant ideas of my own but I held my tongue. I think to myself... What is the point? What is the point of all of this? Why should I put so much effort into an idea, a something that will eventually become nothing. As I am ignored and the game delves further deep into the abyss. But... Alas! a savior has been born.. but born too late? With the future stamping down unto the past. Legion continues as an object of myth that is slowly eating away at dust's core. How can something that may never see the light of day destroy what so many have revered? Through my eyes... Legion lies only in the darkness. Unseen, and untamed. A darkness that has shrouded Dust. Just like the cycle of the sun and the moon, the light slowly fades only to be replaced by shadow and eventual darkness. So here I stand lost and all alone. But am I truly alone? Could there be others who feel just as I do? Others that also feel lost and all alone on this damned game? Can this community find unity in solitude? And so my stomach grumbles, and my train of thought slows. Distracted as I am... I shall leave you with this. Quote: Men have called me mad; but the question is not yet settled, whether madness is or is not the loftiest intelligenceGÇô whether much that is gloriousGÇô whether all that is profoundGÇô does not spring from disease of thoughtGÇô from moods of mind exalted at the expense of the general intellect. - Just a few thoughts from inside the mind of a crazy Taco guy.** Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
Immortal John Ripper 25087	Posted - 2014.10.14 13:21:00 - [2] - Quote 1. I never read. Those excerpts... are just a very rare thing for me. I literally spent the last half-decade not reading any kind of literature... other than what I have read this past couple of months which have only been like 2 or 3 books. 2. English and literature has always been my worst subject. Always my lowest grade or score but could be a result of me not really trying. 3. I never write, I can't even read my own hand writing. 4. When I do type something, I usually talk about food or write code. languages only a robot or stoner would understand. With that said... I have considered writing a book on my spare time and I refuse to let such things hold me back. I wrote this within a span of 5 minutes. No thesaurus or dictionaries, other than those excerpts. Just stuff off the top of my head. I definitely could have put in more effort but I wanted to see what raw talent I may have sleeping inside of me. If I have any talent at all. Rate validity of my thoughts? Rate talent for writing? Asking for peer reviews from a bunch of trolls must be sort of like creating a pizza taco... Kinda crazy, but it fits just my kinda crazy perfectly. Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
Shiyou Hidiyoshi Ancient Exiles. 1004	Posted - 2014.10.14 15:27:00 - [3] - Quote If it is any consolidation, I read more of that than B1ack Ice's posts. I think I made it to the second line "I don't always lock threads but when I do, I vigorously masterbait afterwards." - CCP LockingBro
Immortal John Ripper 25091	Posted - 2014.10.14 15:37:00 - [4] - Quote Shiyou Hidiyoshi wrote: If it is any consolation, I read more of that than B1ack Ice's posts. I think I made it to the second line It actually kind of does. No matter how bad I may seem.... at least I am not black ice. Black ice must be the new term for hitting rock bottom. Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
Jaysyn Larrisen OSG Planetary Operations Covert Intervention 1256	Posted - 2014.10.14 15:50:00 - [5] - Quote Interested in blogging? Seriously...we can get you set up on the www.biomassed.net website. I read your OP from a totally different perspective after your visit to the Podcast on Sunday. You actually hit on a lot of the topics we were throwing around in the show. "Endless money forms the sinews of War." - Cicero Skype: jaysyn.larrisen Twitter: @JaysynLarrisen
Ripley Riley Incorruptibles 3679	Posted - 2014.10.14 15:56:00 - [6] - Quote Immortal John Ripper wrote: Rate validity of my thoughts? Rate talent for writing? Asking for peer reviews from a bunch of trolls must be sort of like creating a pizza taco... Kinda crazy, but it fits just my kinda crazy perfectly. At some points, like in the paragraph that begins "But... Alas!", you come across a bit trite. Overall, you seem very sincere in your tone and that tone stays constant throughout the piece. You did get off topic, but this is meant to be an "internal monologue" so I'm not judging you too harshly for that. My advice: Write often and about everything that comes to mind. Also, read more, if you don't already. Dictionaries and thesauruses are not your enemy. Let people read your work and become accustomed to hearing feedback; then take neither praise or criticism too seriously. Write poetry. Even if it is terrible, write it anyway. My advice to you, playa...
Immortal John Ripper 25094	Posted - 2014.10.14 16:42:00 - [7] - Quote Jaysyn Larrisen wrote: Interested in blogging? Seriously...we can get you set up on the www.biomassed.net website. I read your OP from a totally different perspective after your visit to the Podcast on Sunday. You actually hit on a lot of the topics we were throwing around in the show. Thanks for the compliments but... You are probably overestimating me. LOL. I would be interested but I am not really sure what I would talk about. Ripley Riley wrote: Immortal John Ripper wrote: Rate validity of my thoughts? Rate talent for writing? Asking for peer reviews from a bunch of trolls must be sort of like creating a pizza taco... Kinda crazy, but it fits just my kinda crazy perfectly. At some points, like in the paragraph that begins "But... Alas!", you come across a bit trite. Overall, you seem very sincere in your tone and that tone stays constant throughout the piece. You did get off topic, but this is meant to be an "internal monologue" so I'm not judging you too harshly for that. My advice: Write often and about everything that comes to mind. Also, read more, if you don't already. Dictionaries and thesauruses are not your enemy. Let people read your work and become accustomed to hearing feedback; then take neither praise or criticism too seriously. Write poetry. Even if it is terrible, write it anyway. Thank you for the feedback Ripley. I know I still have alot to learn. I know Dictionaries are not my enemies, but like I said I wanted to test my raw talent. I also wanted to test the current state of my vocabulary. It's not very often that I get to practice it... It has also been many years since I have been to school. I wanted to see how much I retained. I will put much more effort into my next little piece of work just so I can compare the before and after. So far, I feel like I have not lost too much of my mojo. As for books, any recommendations? So far I have read: Angels and Demons, The Da Vinci Code, Johnny got his gun, and Holy Blood, Holy Grail. Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
Thor Odinson42 Molon Labe. General Tso's Alliance 4918	Posted - 2014.10.14 17:01:00 - [8] - Quote I think the people still playing just want to keep things going without too much drama. I know I wouldn't like to see some big war that led to a bunch of people rage quitting. Some good news and some hope from CCP and perhaps things will pick up. Level 4 Forum Warrior Help Me Reach Level 5
Thor Odinson42 Molon Labe. General Tso's Alliance 4918	Posted - 2014.10.14 17:09:00 - [9] - Quote Now that i actually read your entire post, wow! I didn't expect that. I think you sum up the way I feel about things to a T. I keep playing because of the relationships and because I'm still addicted to it. Perhaps it's just me, but I feel like the vast majority of the active players now aren't playing the game the way we all play it. I don't see the newbros making connections and grouping up to try to take on the people that stomp them in pubs. I see it in my own corp chat when people are obviously just grinding away some games solo and log off without saying a word. The hope and the passion for Dust seems to be on it's last leg. Level 4 Forum Warrior Help Me Reach Level 5
Ripley Riley Incorruptibles 3686	Posted - 2014.10.14 17:14:00 - [10] - Quote Immortal John Ripper wrote: Thank you for the feedback Ripley. I know I still have a lot to learn. I know Dictionaries are not my enemies, but like I said I wanted to test my raw talent. I also wanted to test the current state of my vocabulary. It's not very often that I get to practice it... It has also been many years since I have been to school. I wanted to see how much I retained. I will put much more effort into my next little piece of work just so I can compare the before and after. So far, I feel like I have not lost too much of my mojo. As for books, any recommendations? So far I have read: Angels and Demons, The Da Vinci Code, Johnny got his gun, and Holy Blood, Holy Grail. Happy to help. If you ever want me to proofread for errors or content please just let me know. I write science fiction and fantasy as a hobby. Please, please read 'Neuromancer' by William Gibson. It's a very dark, gritty look into out future. I really enjoyed 'Dune' by Frank Herbert. It has a lot of religious undertones and the political backstabbing reminds me a little of GoT. Plus it gave us the Litany Against Fear... Quote: I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing....only I will remain 'Wizards First Rule' by Terry Goodkind is a bit more contemporary. It's fantasy, but the hero is very flawed and a real badass. If you keep reading the series the author points out the flaws in socialism and capitalism very subtly. Plus, he gives a sword that make him stronger and suffer less injuries to angrier he is... so he's like if Aragorn and The Incredible Hulk had a kid. My advice to you, playa...

Killar-12 The Corporate Raiders Top Men. 3340	Posted - 2014.10.14 17:19:00 - [11] - Quote This may be the highest quality OP in the war room, and with the great shining posters of old this is no thing to say lightly and many others who have made occasional shiny posts. The number one thing CCP can do is do meaningless interaction, which at least means they seem like the interact just on pointless level (IE "That sounds neat", or "that doesn't fit into lore") http://evil-guide.tripod.com/
Commander Shepard III Pure Evil. 20	Posted - 2014.10.14 17:35:00 - [12] - Quote Thor Odinson42 wrote: Now that i actually read your entire post, wow! I didn't expect that. I think you sum up the way I feel about things to a T. I keep playing because of the relationships and because I'm still addicted to it. Perhaps it's just me, but I feel like the vast majority of the active players now aren't playing the game the way we all play it. I don't see the newbros making connections and grouping up to try to take on the people that stomp them in pubs. I see it in my own corp chat when people are obviously just grinding away some games solo and log off without saying a word. The hope and the passion for Dust seems to be on it's last leg. Yeah things will never be the same. :( Property of John ShepardIII
Immortal John Ripper 25103	Posted - 2014.10.14 19:11:00 - [13] - Quote Wow guys, thanks for all the compliments. If only there was a tears of joy emoticon. I was expecting to get trolled alot more than this... You have all encouraged me to continue to practice my writing. I really am enjoying this new hobby of mine. Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
Ripley Riley Incorruptibles 3696	Posted - 2014.10.14 19:13:00 - [14] - Quote Immortal John Ripper wrote: Wow guys, thanks for all the compliments. If only there was a tears of joy emoticon. I was expecting to get trolled alot more than this... You have all encouraged me to continue to practice my writing. I really am enjoying this new hobby of mine. I'm reminded of a great quote from Kevin Smith. "Remember: It costs nothing to encourage an artist, and the potential benefits are staggering. A pat on the back to an artist now could one day result in your favorite film, or the cartoon you love to get stoned watching, or the song that saves your life. Discourage an artist, you get absolutely nothing in return, ever." My advice to you, playa...
B1ack ice Holdfast Syndicate Amarr Empire 387	Posted - 2014.10.14 19:41:00 - [15] - Quote u need to be a little bit more bitchy if you ***** more it will be more realistic sounding which is why the logs from my diaries generated so many heat and passion because i played the part of a complete and utter girl... what we all SHOULD be when we confess our deepest and darkest desires to an empty notebook. unlike u i don't have a lock on mine If you're going to be bad, be bad in bed.
B1ack ice Holdfast Syndicate Amarr Empire 388	Posted - 2014.10.14 21:41:00 - [16] - Quote Hold on a second! Now that I actually took the time to read the thread, I'm genuinely happy now. I've been wondering what I can do to make everyone in the war room love me again... I'll just go along with the crowd. Gets on knees and opens wide So, this is what it's like to be another John Ripper fanboy? I think there is hope for me after all. Although I'm the one getting paid for sucking his d!ck... the rest of you are paying him TO suck his d!ck. I'm not a cheap hooker, I'm an expensive hooker... you know... for governors and sh!t. <3 Wait for it... wait for it.. OR SHOULD I SAY GENERALS?!!! Dun dun dun If you're going to be bad, be bad in bed.
Everything Dies LIFE IS KILLING ME 1023	Posted - 2014.10.15 00:18:00 - [17] - Quote F*** this "Dear Diary" stuff. You guys (and gals) need to take a quick trip down memory lane and start writing to your Mum. A sample: Dear Mum, Lost my virginity as per the instructions. At last, I was ready for the sex change. I joined an order of military nuns and poisoned half of them... Mike Patton is the greatest singer in music. Proof
Bri Bub Eternal Beings Dark Taboo 38	Posted - 2014.10.15 03:16:00 - [18] - Quote Immortal John Ripper wrote: ... As for books, any recommendations? So far I have read: Angels and Demons, The Da Vinci Code, Johnny got his gun, and Holy Blood, Holy Grail. Naked Lunch by William S Borroughs: completed in 1959, this short novel went so far beyond the pale that it led to one of the most important obscenity trials in American history (and WON as bejudged by the US Supreme Court! It set the definition for lawful obscenity in artful works)... Writing style, subject matter and brutal, obscene honesty are its hallmarks if you can get past its "breaking the fourh wall" which some would consider an over-used convention in any media (think Ferris Bueller though Burroughs employed, somewhat sparingly as it is not persistent throughout the work, this approach before it became too terribly common... This book is a classic, part of American fictional and legal cannon, if you aren't too squeamish... If you are like me, you didn't care for wasting time with Summer reading assignments during your secondary school days so you may have missed Catch 22 by Joseph Heller... Cleverly written and unrelentingly funny, this is one I only enjoyed only well after any academic career had ended... Be just and if you can't be just be arbitrary.
Derrith Erador Fatal Absolution 2867	Posted - 2014.10.15 03:23:00 - [19] - Quote B1ack ice wrote: Gets on knees and opens wide Yeah I'm not falling for that one again. Last time that happened, I specifically said no teeth, but did you listen? Noooooooooo, but you did use tongue, I'll have to give you that. FAs official perv and lech. My dream is to turn 80 and become a dirty old man chasing skirts.
Killar-12 The Corporate Raiders Top Men. 3341	Posted - 2014.10.15 04:16:00 - [20] - Quote B1ack ice wrote: Hold on a second! Now that I actually took the time to read the thread, I'm genuinely happy now. I've been wondering what I can do to make everyone in the war room love me again... I'll just go along with the crowd. Gets on knees and opens wide So, this is what it's like to be another John Ripper fanboy? I think there is hope for me after all. Although I'm the one getting paid for sucking his d!ck... the rest of you are paying him TO suck his d!ck. I'm not a cheap hooker, I'm an expensive hooker... you know... for governors and sh!t. <3 Wait for it... wait for it.. Or should I say Generals? Black... you never saw the War Room of old, hell you didn't even see EoN die or RA rise... you came in on the high-time of the last great empire... also I really should get stuff together to tell the stories of olden times. Some of us are relics of the past... some of us are greats, others are nobodies. Understanding the past explains the present... Groups like NF, CRONOS, EoN, PFB, HS, ROFL(Still Around but the old ROFL was a different creature than the one we see today), STB, DF, Goons (that were part of the community that is), all of the wars and rebellions and coalitions. and the individuals, I don't say there are many individuals but those who did matter... they did it well... I am but a nobody in some eyes, I am a ************ in others, to some I am a Raider, to others a talking head, a thief, a liar, and a monster. There are those who have done well by me and to whom I find great joy to call a friend, an ally or a corpmate. But... as I said I am a nobody, I sit well and don't see more odd than a nomal person with their normal quirks and perhaps this is where I stand out the most, or more accurately the least. In Open Beta I didn't go by this name, and I'd prefer to not talk of who I was... I didn't make mistakes, at least in the conventional sense, I just became entangled in a cause not worth fighting for, albeit one that showed the toxicity of those in the upper echelons at that time and had gained a disdain for many of their ilk. I took this name and forged a new life per se with a new name, telling the rest of my story is not a topic I feel I can dive into properly with the time constraints I face right now I'll put it like this, Ripper is this forum in a sense... he embodies it as it was in the glory days SoTa's Shitposting, Thor's posts, and only a few others bring back that which was... and that brings comfort to many like myself... http://evil-guide.tripod.com/

B1ack ice Ancient Exiles. 397	Posted - 2014.10.15 04:57:00 - [21] - Quote Derrith Erador wrote: B1ack ice wrote: Gets on knees and opens wide Yeah I'm not falling for that one again. Last time that happened, I specifically said no teeth, but did you listen? Noooooooooo, but you did use tongue, I'll have to give you that. Don't pretend like you didn't like it when I bit you. Technically, I just grazed my teeth. I DO know what I'm doing... and not just with my tongue. Don't complain to me about me marking what's mine when you're perfectly free to bite me wherever you want. If you're going to be bad, be bad in bed.
Immortal John Ripper 25112	Posted - 2014.10.15 06:53:00 - [22] - Quote Killar-12 wrote: This may be the highest quality OP in the war room, and with the great shining posters of old this is no thing to say lightly and many others who have made occasional shiny posts. The number one thing CCP can do is do meaningless interaction, which at least means they seem like the interact just on pointless level (IE "That sounds neat", or "that doesn't fit into lore") With all the people poorly copying me.... I see what you mean. I guess having a brain is not a requirement for posting in the war room. I would think that the stupid people would be the ones being trolled.... not the other way around. smh. Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
General John Ripper 25196	Posted - 2014.10.15 06:53:00 - [23] - Quote Killar-12 wrote: This may be the highest quality OP in the war room, and with the great shining posters of old this is no thing to say lightly and many others who have made occasional shiny posts. The number one thing CCP can do is do meaningless interaction, which at least means they seem like the interact just on pointless level (IE "That sounds neat", or "that doesn't fit into lore") With all the people poorly copying me.... I see what you mean. I guess having a brain is not a requirement for posting in the war room. I would think that the stupid people would be the ones being trolled.... not the other way around. smh. Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
Long Evity 1705	Posted - 2014.10.15 07:01:00 - [24] - Quote This thread made me throw up a little near the end. I am not who you think I am, only but just a dream.
Killar-12 The Corporate Raiders Top Men. 3344	Posted - 2014.10.15 07:24:00 - [25] - Quote Long Evity wrote: This thread made me throw up a little near the end. I'll make a thread that will make you puke... http://evil-guide.tripod.com/
Immortal John Ripper 25113	Posted - 2014.10.15 07:37:00 - [26] - Quote Killar-12 wrote: Long Evity wrote: This thread made me throw up a little near the end. I'll make a thread that will make you puke... It's black ice. She killed the mood lol. Now people are afraid to tell me anymore nice things! Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
General John Ripper 25196	Posted - 2014.10.15 07:37:00 - [27] - Quote Killar-12 wrote: Long Evity wrote: This thread made me throw up a little near the end. I'll make a thread that will make you puke... It's black ice. She killed the mood lol. Now people are afraid to tell me anymore nice things! Dear Diary - The thoughts of a madman.
B1ack ice Ancient Exiles. 399	Posted - 2014.10.15 22:25:00 - [28] - Quote Immortal John Ripper wrote: Killar-12 wrote: Long Evity wrote: This thread made me throw up a little near the end. I'll make a thread that will make you puke... It's black ice. She killed the mood lol. Now people are afraid to tell me anymore nice things! It's okay. There, there. Pats back I'm here for you. I know so many people sucking your **** all the time must exhaust your poor soul. I can go insane on the forums again and do my best to get them to lay off, if that would make you happy. If you're going to be bad, be bad in bed.
Long Evity 1707	Posted - 2014.10.15 22:47:00 - [29] - Quote lol, you think people talking to him straight and accepting his opinion has to do with **** sucking? It's called communication, learn it. I am not who you think I am, only but just a dream.
B1ack ice Ancient Exiles. 399	Posted - 2014.10.15 22:56:00 - [30] - Quote Long Evity wrote: lol, you think people talking to him straight and accepting his opinion has to do with **** sucking? It's called communication, learn it. I understand that you give it to him straight and I don't hold that against you. You can give it to me straight any time, SoTa. ;) If you're going to be bad, be bad in bed.



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