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Posted - 2017.01.12 15:57:00 -
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in a way, we're all looking for someone.
for me? i found her. once. i knew at first meeting that she was something special. she needed everything that i wanted to give; and i needed everything she had to offer. unfortunately timing just did not work out for us and we spent the next decade or more keeping in touch as our lives allowed. though we cared very much for each other, it seemed that a life together was not in our stars.
we slowly lost contact with each other, except for an occasional christmas or birthday greeting. her life continued, as did mine. we both all but gave up on hope except for a what-if fantasy that we might one day reunite in our old ages to come.
one day fate took a turn and we found ourselves in each others' presence again. it seemed a miracle! we were together, truly this time, and we loved one another completely. that lasted for approximately three years before the awareness took hold that we each had grown accustom to being alone in our lives. she was now too set in her ways to remember how to completely share her heart again. i was too naive and blind by idealistic hope and as a result never seemed grounded enough to provide her the emotional stability she needed in compliment to her moods.
we have since again drifted apart. she is on her path, and i on mine. perhaps one day we will cross ways once more. i do not know. i do know, though, that for whatever reason, we are continually just out of synchronous reach of each other. when she is there, i am just short. when i am here, she has moved on.
we are but two raindrops, falling in parallel. we are aware and are each affected by the others' gravity, but we neither have control of our individual trajectories. perhaps an external force---a wind---might push us closer still, but that is beyond our power to control. perhaps we will find each other again, on the earth, after the storm. that is a nice thought ...as well fall.
if not in this life, then the next.
i wish you well in your journey to find your Clyde. i hope he gives you the peace and happiness that we all pray for in life.
o7
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