And I disliked you because you have a big ego and you've thrown it about in ways I despise.

But perception is simply that and I remember playing with you and Kujo and enjoying pew pewing ambush while being drunk.

I remember being impressed with the amount of people (not always the caliber *cough* egypt) who gathered to you.

And I never thought you were a bad player or unworthy of being in the fights.

This has been the biggest difference between leaders and asshats on dust since time immemorial.

Cubs could cleverly insult me one post and yet still pay me a compliment for how strong FA was in the next.

The greatest leaders of all IMO never needed to insult people period.

It's one of the reasons Dubbs is still the gold standard for leadership I look to as an example.

Sota...you're either blinded by bias or trolling for a response but either way I'll set the record straight.

I have always revered what we accomplished in TP.

I've ranked corps a few times and everytime I've listed TP above FA...and that hasn't changed. When someone asks me about TP I have a lot of love and fond memories of my time there.

The time I spent in TP was some of the best times I ever had on dust. A sharp contrast to the skepticism I felt from Subdreddit when I wanted to help people and belong so much...and the ego's that impeded camaraderie in PFBHz in spite of the best efforts of people like piercing serenity and jaden longshot.

I may think that the way Cubs handled locking was a poor decision when we could have manned up and finished FEC off...and I may think that he failed to live up to his promise to provide me with funds for a new corp when TP left the game....but I still think Cubs was a fantastic FC, still think the people in TP for the most part were amazing...and a lot of what I learned in TP prepared me to succeed in creating and nurturing FA.

The very relationship of HT and Cubs changed the way I thought about leadership.

Eschewing ego is something HT achieved so well that I can only be in awe of his character.

He probably still has ugly words to say if you brought my name up...but I have no qualms about paying him the respect he earned from me.

It's not a contradiction in terms for one to be critical of mistakes and still think highly of someone.

I may think silly's ego and his hard headed personality when it comes to being criticized or reproved in a way he finds disrespectful but isn't intended that way are critical flaws...but that doesn't mean I don't also think highly of Silly.

You won't see me ever saying anything antagonistic here about Silly because of our friendship precludes such wasteful demagoguery , regardless of disagreements.

In short, Silly is very much aware of my opinion of him and I know he's smarter than to be roped into the machinations this forum detrimentally breeds.