Shepherd Grey
Capital Acquisitions LLC
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Posted - 2015.10.28 15:24:00 -
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Zatara Rought wrote:
Maybe it's just me but history is less about events and more about people.
I read briefly some of these other posts...like OH rewriting history about leaving the game for destiny when in reality OH became the very thing it despised and the result was cat dog and fusion coming back to FA...and we started face rolling OH...and then OH and FA quit. Yeah OH had been getting the best of us using our own players...but when fusion and doggy came back oh got rick rolled. OH hit FA in the midst of a rebuild and called us weak...boy the Ole pot calling the kettle black there...compare that to the way we treated OH when they were rebuilding...arms wide open. That was almost as disappointing as the way Cap repaid us for supporting their pleas to remain in TSO...despite it costing us a team players going to OH and elsewhere because they didn't want to be in a blue donut with cap.
Statements like that first line are why this guy is among the literal HANDFUL of people whose ideologies mirrored mine, and philosophical conversations carried a certain depth/perception wherein an almost natural desire for the game's progression was quite apparent (the rest include Kujo, Soul, Tibs, Sax). Without which, I would never have seen myself on the same side as FA.
Funny, I had the pleasure of watching old IMP/PFB PC videos and the Urgent Fury TP/AE fights where Zatara was fighting just a few days ago. It made me realize: coming into dust the week of Uprising, building a corp out of Uprising babies....I was a shrimp among giants. The struggle to quarry a mole hill in the shadow of mansions. A pawn front lined by bishops, knights, queens, all the while having no idea I was playing a 2D chess game with people who could see the game board from above - marionettes of men. Though I may have carved what measly mark I could in our history, it means absolutely NOTHING without the PEOPLE who entrusted me to lead them; those who bought into a philosophy, a direction, a drive and directive. The guys who stuck around when you get removed from PC entirely. The guys who x'd up no matter the opponent, grinded when isk was scarce, followed FC orders to utter and certain demise.
I've wanted to create a memoir of my own, a chronicle of the claw up the hill to relevancy for Uprising and later-born clones against beta titans. I still remember my first PC against ProHic flaylock spam (hooray 2 mil sp)...DDB attempting to extort me 200 mil to keep my first district off Altbrard....Cubs trying to sell me insurance packages, and my refusal leading to inevitable attack by premium level corps...NS telling me I would be spared if I left Public Disorder...the flak I received for joining Renegade...and everything in between. Many of you vets have no idea what it was like starting below the bottom. None of it matters. I always strive to give danger the finger, not to straddle the incumbent powerhouse, and face fights with what I had in the corp toolbox.
Zat can be the first to confirm, the ins and outs of leadership in the MH world is a saga in itself. The shady deals, pursuit of the almighty isk, blue-ing, red-ing, "gray"-ing. Those moments where one decision literally was the fate of a corporation in its entirety, whether on the district or in the diplo. In reality, for a leader like those I listed, I know one thing is for sure: everything is for the men. Every fight with my ex, the bar nights skipped, the 10+ hours of dust daily, the list goes on -- all to ensure an enjoyable and memorable experience for the guys you've come to love on your team.
The sad state of this game...it pains me so. A dream literally reduced to ashes. To see my passion atrophy with each hotfix, die a little more inside when each guy moves on. Hard to keep everyone together moving forward. This game has been one long production, with everyone a character in their own right. I struggle to remember even the most key guys from the past.
I will settle one score while I'm here. I remember quite clearly the day you told me we would be red Zat, I would be removed from Tso's. At the time, OH was smashing us on the daily, and FA was no showing their own battles vs OH. True as it may have been some players moved to OH from FA I can't confirm or deny as the dates are sketchy at best. However, if Tiberius and Roman were here they would both attest (I would bet my bottom isk on it)....when we started beating OH and ERA on at the very least a consistent 50%+ basis, I never again heard anything about removal from the alliance out of you again. We were the only corp in Tso's capable of winning at all, let alone staying competitive against the two. Tibs said it himself in the many conversations we had quite plainly: "CAP is the only corp that will field and fight, no matter what - no drama."
To continue, I question this if you say we caused Tso's to be a blue donut: why would MuLa have been let in after all of this went down? As I was informed upon my return, it was an alliance leadership vote that permitted Roman to join Tso's (my guys voted no, but were outnumbered). Tso's was scared of Pure Evil (maybe OH as well, idk if they were dead yet), and wanted to REMAIN a donut. I told you time and time again when I came back: your leadership circle disgusted me, and you were the ONLY guy I sincerely respected (maybe Kaisar or Skel too, can't remember). My actions in dissolving Tso's was essentially the death penalty for FA mass farming, Roman blue-donut strangle hold, and pleas from my men to open MH up.
Water under the bridge.
I do envy the earlier experiences guys like you had when I was an irrelevant 500k sp headless chicken. Without leaders like yourself and others, and men to follow them, all of this means nothing. A cordial bow to all the backstage crew, the guys whose names won't be remembered by all...
Yes, this post was a bit scattered....so much more to say, but character limit reached. Enjoy! |