Don't get me wrong, I thoroughly enjoy losing match after match after match, constantly changing fits and escalating in power tiers in some hopeless effort to maybe even up the odds while the "match maker" screws me every time. Maybe my MU is so high that it feels it's necessary to pit me and a team of Militia wielding redline snipers up against full proto squads consistently, even though I continuously lose round after lound, rather than - I dunno - being on the winning team sometime.

Ten minutes ago, Dust 514 made it's mark in my autobiography as the first - and to date, only - game that I've ever actually broken a controller to the point it needed a replacement.

See you guys next week when my over-priced, "brand new" relic DS3 comes in and I can continue playing this ever-more frustrating game that somehow can't seem to ever nail a decent match setup.

Been like that every night for me for the past year or so. I'm so fed up with this on-going meta, the constant gameplay gimmicks, never actually having an enjoyable gameplay experience, etc. There was a point when I could legitimately set the control down, smiling, and thinking to myself, "Wow, that was awesome" but now it's just frustration every time. I used to cap out every week and now I'll be lucky if I pull 100,000 SP out of my cap because I just don't care to constantly get my kitten handed to me.

But, yanno, "git gud" right? Just saying, back in Chromosome I used to kick ass with an ~7.5 KDR and it's been declining every since, I think I'm at like 2.3 or something now. Which is to say that I didn't change, the game changed. I dunno what culmination of changes made me just this really bad player who can never actually have a good game that I don't sit there and dwell on all the BS entailed in previous matches but whatever it is it's totally killed any joy I find in playing it anymore.



I take a break a week after every new build since Uprising 1.8. I genuinely don't play this game that much anymore. It's nothing like it used to be. I just sort of sign in every time there's a new build hopelessly optimistic that maybe I'll find it enjoyable again but I'm always proving myself wrong. EDIT: It's also the only game I ever get frustrated playing. Anything else, the losses are laughable at best. Dust 514 is like trying to find enjoyment from fellating a hot curling iron.