you tried to off yourself? why??
Because dust?
It's not worth it man. Don't do it!

ok to re cap looks like i can get some time online every day-ish

as for offing my self over the game NO wrong never did it was stuff in Real Life that,s was why i tryed to how to say it in eve talk self poding !


but agine im fine and getting better just RLY pissed to here what on with fanfest over dust not going to ps4

and all i had to say it ! ccp ...... I Dont like you as in - 8.9

ok to re cap looks like i can get some time online every day-ish

as for offing my self over the game NO wrong never did it was stuff in Real Life that,s was why i tryed to how to say it in eve talk self poding !


but agine im fine and getting better just RLY pissed to here what on with fanfest over dust not going to ps4

and all i had to say it ! ccp ...... I Dont like you as in - 8.9

I wish you the best and I hope your real life problems/issues become resolved. We all have our ups AND downs. However we all must remember that... "Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again." - Captain Picard of the USS Enterprise.

Even through the bad experiences, we can grow ourselves and learn from our experiences. Positivity can be found in all aspects of life, if you know where to look.

Is in the Care of the VA after trying to OFF my self 30 + days ago recovering be back in to dust 514 some day ......

that's unless CCP kills dust 514 for Ps3 !!
Rly CCP WTF !!


any ways just letting you all know im still alive ( im sooo going to pod some CCP dev,s when i get out of here )


PS: may be a bit befor they let me back on the internet like 2-3 weeks

its only becus i been so next at telling the doc,s every day i been here how much it be nice if i could get online for my laptop !!!

ya i know just im finally glad to be doing something about my ptsd/drinking/smoking/no ******* real job/stuck in a cow town for the last 4 1/2 ******* yrs sens i been out problems/issues!
anyways hopefully after im done with there veteran recovery programs (that i should had when to when i got out of the army)
i can get on with my life and do stuff with it vs being drunk playing games like Eve online and dust 514 made from far a way game maker from the land of Ice Lands ..... who all so likes saying one-thing and do,s the other for a few fast bucks. ( because they cant try working **** out to make a awesome game!)

PS: im sorry ccp but like i said do this stuff and im setting you along with Alot of other eve/fps dust players at standing - 8.9 or lower !

ya i know just im finally glad to be doing something about my ptsd/drinking/smoking/no ******* real job/stuck in a cow town for the last 4 1/2 ******* yrs sens i been out problems/issues!
anyways hopefully after im done with there veteran recovery programs (that i should had when to when i got out of the army)
i can get on with my life and do stuff with it vs being drunk playing games like Eve online and dust 514 made from far a way game maker from the land of Ice Lands ..... who all so likes saying one-thing and do,s the other for a few fast bucks. ( because they cant try working **** out to make a awesome game!)

PS: im sorry ccp but like i said do this stuff and im setting you along with Alot of other eve/fps dust players at standing - 8.9 or lower !

I hear ya man. I used to attend alcoholics anonymous meeting 2 years ago. Started drinking when I was 15 and realized I had to get it under control. I have been in a similar situation but I also was able to earn a college degree, am getting paid low and being overly qualified for my job atm but fk it. It pays the bills and I am on the way to owning my own home so I can't really complain there.

As long as I got a roof over my head I am good. However hopefully something better will come up that will earn me a bit more so I can pay the bills and have a little fun sometimes. Or at least upgrade from canned foods and sandwhiches everyday lol. But hey a mans gotta do what a mans gotta do right?

I quit smoking, and for the most part I quit drinking. I have maybe 2 drinks a month or every 2 months. Most of the time it is when I go out and people offer to buy me a drink. I am alot more focused on my work nowadays. I also come from a cow town lmao but I have a job offer atm that will be up north a bit in a bigger city but it will be open in about 2 months. I am not putting all my hopes into it but it is something to possibly look forward too.

Crazy how we have been in similar situations... but hey, if I can do it, you can too. I can support you as much as I can but in the end it is up to you and you alone if you truly want to make a change for the better. It's not impossible, I did it and so can you.