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Nova Knife
Seituoda Taskforce Command
Caldari State
2530
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Posted - 2014.05.21 04:39:00 -
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Firstly, I feel it should be said that I will not dispute this decision, and I will stand behind CCP for making it. Since my removal was been announced, there has been speculation as to the reason. I am writing this post to hopefully clear that up. It is not my intention to come across as a hero, inspire outrage, or come off as trying to make myself a martyr, or anything silly like that. My removal was a consequence for my actions, and I have no intention of doing anything but take full responsibility for that.
The simple truth is, I have always been a passionate person. This passion is what led to my being chosen for the CPM in the first place, and is ultimately what led to my "downfall"as a council member. I have never been afraid to step on toes to express my opinions and concerns. My passion sometimes got the better of me, and in expressing myself there were times when I crossed the line. Many times over the last year I have told CCP that the manner in which they communicate is much more important than how often they communicate. A lesson which I had failed to heed myself at times. Inexperience left me ill-prepared to interact with CCP on the level that was expected of us as a council, and because of this my approach to doing so was flawed from the start.
As a person I value honesty above anything else, and I expressed this honesty by voicing concerns with things CCP presented to us in a manner that was often more incendiary than necessary. Truthfully, I would have loved to have been a cheerleader and squealed with glee at everything CCP shared with us... But in thinking that it was the council's job to be critical, I quickly found myself being the "bad cop" among the council and was typically the one who spoke out against things being presented over the course of the year.
I honestly did not like that I had become so cynical and pessimistic about something I love so much, and I yearned for the days' past when I salivated with giddy excitement with every new bit of dust news... And yet, this was something I could not do. I could not smile and pretend things were fine when they were not. It broke my heart to see and hear the things we had to discuss sometimes, and broke it further when I felt I had to rain on someone's parade as they brought us an idea they were clearly excited about, only to hear myself and/or the other council members immediately reject or express serious concerns about that idea.
That is not to say that CCP did not come to us with amazing and exciting things, but the positive conversations unfortunately have little bearing on what brought us to where we are now and why I was dismissed from the council. To clarify; Some have speculated that I went into a state of sheer nerdrage after fanfest, and this is what caused my dismissal. This is not the case by any means. While fanfest was an emotional and heartbreaking time for the entire council, much of what was presented to us before and after fanfest was in fact quite positive. My single largest regret in all this is that I can no longer take part in those discussions anymore, many of which were truly exciting and brought back the hope I had once expressed so enthusiastically in the past.
In Summary;
My removal was a result of my own actions, to which I fully accept and condone the consequences. I am heartbroken that it came to this, but ultimately the blame lies with me. For this, I can only apologize. To CCP, to my fellow Councilbros, and especially to the players. All of whom I have let down with my actions. At the end of the day, this has been a lesson in humility for me. I carried myself in a way that was entirely unjustified, and looking back over these past two years I have been working with CCP... I can see many examples of things I could have done and said differently. All I can do is make sure that moving forward, this lesson is one I do not ignore.
The experience of being on the council and getting to view the internal workings of a company was invaluable, and it was just that; experience. Regardless of how things turned out, I would like to think that what I learned as a result will allow me to make better choices in the future. At least, I hope so. For that, I can only express gratitude to CCP to allowing me the opportunity to work with them, and my fellow players for making it worth it and fueling my passion for the game enough for this to have been possible in the first place.
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Cat Merc
Ahrendee Mercenaries
9837
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Posted - 2014.05.21 04:40:00 -
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Nova Knife wrote: ...and I expressed this honesty by voicing concerns with things CCP presented to us in a manner that was often more incendiary than necessary.
Incendiary grenades confirmed!
Feline overlord of all humans - CAT MERC
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Mobius Wyvern
Ahrendee Mercenaries
5279
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Posted - 2014.05.21 04:43:00 -
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Well said, friend.
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Iron Wolf Saber
Den of Swords
15136
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Posted - 2014.05.21 04:44:00 -
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o7
CPM 0 Secretary
Omni-Soldier, Forum Warrior, Annoying Artist
\\= Advanced Caldari Assault // Unlocked
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Cat Merc
Ahrendee Mercenaries
9837
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Posted - 2014.05.21 04:46:00 -
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I'll "vote" you into CPM1 
*Cough* Cat Powers *Cough*
Feline overlord of all humans - CAT MERC
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Heinrich Jagerblitzen
Onslaught Inc
RISE of LEGION
1720
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Posted - 2014.05.21 04:49:00 -
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Thanks for all the hard work this year, I'm proud of what you've accomplished regardless of how things have ended. Keep in touch, friend.
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Kain Spero
3558
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Posted - 2014.05.21 04:51:00 -
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o7
Owner of Spero Escrow Services
Follow @KainSpero for Dust and CPM news
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KAGEHOSHI Horned Wolf
Dominion of the Supreme Emperor God-King KAGEHOSHI
10855
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Posted - 2014.05.21 04:54:00 -
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"especially to the players. All of whom I have let down with my actions"
i don't think any player feels let down by you
"this has been a lesson in humility for me"
humility is for suckaz
Gû¦Supreme emperor god-kingpÇÉKAGEH¦PSHIpÇæ// Lord of threads // Forum altGû+
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Jaysyn Larrisen
OSG Planetary Operations
Covert Intervention
1026
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Posted - 2014.05.21 04:56:00 -
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Nova,
That was a measured and mature response that I believe was truly sincere and earnest. My respect for you has grown dramatically over the last few days as I saw your posts and chats in response to your situation.
Many people rarely get the chance to examine themselves and their place in the world around them after a significant rocky point like this. An exceedingly few actually take advantage of that situation and honestly ask themselves hard questions, internalize the answers, and mature. My observation is that you are handling this as well as anyone could and my hats off to you.
As to why or specifics...they really aren't necessary or pertinent. What is relevant are the lessons learned that CPM candidates can glean from you on how to comport themselves with CCP and each other. What is also relevant is that you are valued member of the community and I for one want you to stay and be a visible positive member.
Thanks for all the work you put in as a CPM and community member....we are better of for it.
"Endless money forms the sinews of War." - Cicero
Skype: jaysyn.larrisen
Twitter: @JaysynLarrisen
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Zatara Rought
General Tso's Alliance
3037
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Posted - 2014.05.21 05:12:00 -
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CCP's news about Nova's removal left me feeling like it was an open wound, another mishandling of a delicate matter.
Thank you for your work ethic, passion, and humility.
I hope you feel solace in the work you contributed to (flaws and all).
CEO of FA, Candidate for CPM1
Follow me on twitter Skype Zatara.Rought
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Cross Atu
OSG Planetary Operations
Covert Intervention
2096
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Posted - 2014.05.21 05:29:00 -
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o7 Nova
Edit: I was tempted to write a more detailed repose, but Jay covered the bases so well I'll just state that I agree and reiterate my thanks for the work you, and the rest of CPM0 have done.
Cross Atu for CPM1- An emergent candidate
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Arunis Gen
G I A N T
General Tso's Alliance
164
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Posted - 2014.05.21 05:34:00 -
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No one who is sane or a complete troll does not feel that you let them down.
"I always knew that when I looked back on the times I cried I would smile. But I never knew that when I looked back on the times I smiled I would cry."
"Never let a memory become stronger than a dream."
"There is an end to all things no matter how much we want to hold on to them."
~_~-G I A N T for Life-~_~
~_~-Head Diplomat-~_~
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Jathniel
G I A N T
General Tso's Alliance
1033
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Posted - 2014.05.21 05:47:00 -
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o7 |
Sargon Akkadi
55
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Posted - 2014.05.21 06:19:00 -
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"If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, donGÇÖt deal in lies,
Or being hated, donGÇÖt give way to hating,
And yet donGÇÖt look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dreamGÇöand not make dreams your master;
If you can thinkGÇöand not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth youGÇÖve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build GÇÖem up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: GÇÿHold on!GÇÖ
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with KingsGÇönor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty secondsGÇÖ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything thatGÇÖs in it,
AndGÇöwhich is moreGÇöyouGÇÖll be a Man, my son!"
o7
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Spectral Clone
Dust2Dust.
Top Men.
2835
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Posted - 2014.05.21 06:29:00 -
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You had a passion for the greater good of the community, much respect for that!
Nova CPM, best CPM.
This message was brought to you by the PC master race.
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Aeon Amadi
Edimmu Warfighters
Gallente Federation
5686
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Posted - 2014.05.21 06:44:00 -
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An unfortunate lesson that it is possible to be too passionate about something. You did good, for all that it's worth.
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Zion Shad
ZionTCD
Top Men.
2267
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Posted - 2014.05.21 06:56:00 -
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CPM1 Hopeful
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Laurent Cazaderon
What The French
Red Whines.
2334
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Posted - 2014.05.21 07:21:00 -
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Well, i have to admit i was surprised to hear you were well... fired.
I know the way you worked when you were CPM and even though sometimes your flamming made the talking difficult (especially on specific subjects), it never bothered me really as passion was my fuel as well. But yet, i never found you to be out of line when i was there to witness. And as far as flamming goes, i did my share as well.
So yeah i'm still very much wondering how that happen, what was the last push... Perhaps the global situation played a part as well in the decision making.
Anyway, i really enjoyed working\talking with you. Be it in the CPM, at FF13 or long before that on IRC/forums/websites/podcasts and stuff. Your "goodbye" speech is very well thought but i think you're being way too hard on yourself, when one reads that, he'll have the feeling you did nothing but yell and trash talk. When it's really not the case.
So long dear Nova, may you fly safe forever !
o7
Here they are, and they brought a Trooooooooooooooooooll !
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Requin Toblat
Glitched Connection
35
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Posted - 2014.05.21 07:55:00 -
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o7 |
Zaria Min Deir
Escrow Removal and Acquisition
Negative-Feedback
658
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Posted - 2014.05.21 10:56:00 -
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KAGEHOSHI Horned Wolf wrote:"especially to the players. All of whom I have let down with my actions"
i don't think any player feels let down by you
This. <3 Nova
Have you considered installing the improved keyboard?
"Go Go Power Rangers!"
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Kevall Longstride
DUST University
Ivy League
1344
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Posted - 2014.05.21 14:28:00 -
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Thanks for all your hard work.
o7
CPM1 Candidate
CEO of DUST University
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Soraya Xel
Abandoned Privilege
Top Men.
2577
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Posted - 2014.05.21 15:04:00 -
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o7 Nova has handled the aftermath of this whole affair with class.
I'd like to be your CPM1 candidate
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Vrain Matari
Mikramurka Shock Troop
Minmatar Republic
2117
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Posted - 2014.05.21 19:12:00 -
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Well said Nova. Live and learn.
Personally speaking, you haven't let me down at all. I know you fought for the DUST i wanted. It's been a long road and many of us have been fighting against increasing odds to realize the inspiring potential we saw for DUST 514 and New Eden years ago. The battle has been epic and brutal and not without its casualties.
Thank you for fighting the good fight.
o7
PSN: RationalSpark
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Captain Crutches
Nexus Marines
132
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Posted - 2014.05.21 19:24:00 -
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Ya dun good, bro. Ya dun good.
I hope we will continue to see you on the battlefield far into Legion's term. Thanks for being a great CPMbro.
o7
To CCP... CPM1 elections when?
Legion is absolutely the right move for the future of Dust. How CCP went about revealing it is the biggest problem.
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Godin Thekiller
shadows of 514
2380
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Posted - 2014.05.21 20:13:00 -
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hummm..........
Antigone in the CPM.........................
click me
Blup Blub Bloop. Translation: Die -_-
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Necandi Brasil
DUST BRASIL S.A
Caps and Mercs
959
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Posted - 2014.05.21 21:27:00 -
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Hey Nova,
Sure It wasn't all your fault bro...
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ReGnYuM
Escrow Removal and Acquisition
Negative-Feedback
3000
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Posted - 2014.05.22 01:29:00 -
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Thanks Nova,
However, I am still disgusted that you were removed for something so insignificant IMO. Sorry Kane, but nova was dead on this one and pointing out ones flaws should not be justification for dissmal...EVER.
The Pathway to Hell, is paved with good intentions
Total Molden Heath Domination Imminent: 97.51% Complete
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Fox Gaden
Immortal Guides
3444
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Posted - 2014.05.22 16:15:00 -
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Nova Knife, I have always learned much more from my failures than I ever learned from my successes. I am also strongest in areas where I once was weak, due to working on my weaknesses. I am glad that you are taking this as a learning experience and taking the time to consider the lessons you can take from this experience.
If being too negative seems to be one of your weaknesses in such situations, then you can work on being more constructive and positive when considering an idea. There are ways of telling someone that their idea will not work, without making them feel bad, or creating an awkward or confrontational situation. Working on your approach in this way will make you better at this type of role in the future.
I hope to see you take a constructive role in the community now that you have more free time. 
Hand/Eye coordination cannot be taught. For everything else there is the Learning Coalition.
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IAmDuncanIdaho II
R 0 N 1 N
442
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Posted - 2014.05.22 17:07:00 -
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Thanks for all your hard work and effort. DUST is in a better place than it would have been without it.
Allow that burning passion to fire full force - channeling it and expressing it are skills that don't come with it.
You must learn honor, or you deserve to learn nothing at all.
~ Rivvy Dinari - Swordmaster of Ginaz
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JonnyAugust
Imperfects
Negative-Feedback
368
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Posted - 2014.05.23 15:44:00 -
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The second you showed up in dust and stole the ears of the developers by being obnoxious and obsessive was the moment this game didn't have a chance on ps3. For all your passion you have nothing to show for it but damaged relationships and a failed game.
Spending 80% of your time making sure drop ships were balanced sure worked out so well. I am glad you are gone and I assure you that the majority of players you offended and disenfranchised in the pre fanfest era are enjoying this moment very much. Good riddance.
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Hynox Xitio
0uter.Heaven
1209
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Posted - 2014.05.25 03:57:00 -
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Looks like its election ti- *banned*
Unleash the Fogwoggler, follow your dreams.
( -íº -£-û -íº) /)
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