http://dust514.com/media/fiction/speaks-and-walks/

very interesting read, i find my character is currently in the second stage but quickly coming up to the third :D

It is indeed interesting.

(This is something to discuss in the Fiction section, BTW.)

One thing about the stages discussed here: while a clone soldier might still go through a similar progression, it would now be, probably, for different reasons. This was the progression of the first generation; anyone introduced after that would not have had the same brush with madness (or at least, not the same madness). Also, most of the first generation was apparently wiped out at the culmination of the third stage. The Amarr were the exception, but those who haven't yet allowed themselves to be upgraded were recently subjected to a hunt that was (I assume, since it didn't permakill them) focused on forcing them into upgraded clones.

In other words, your character may very well be going batty. It'll probably be different-batty, though; the stuff clone soldiers encounter in their daily lives really is enough to drive a person, if nothing else, deep into PTSD.


True Adamance:

Sometimes there's a limit to how much one person can pay. The piece describes neatly the attitude (and one path to reaching that attitude) of many a clone merc.

Those of us who are still faction-loyal are the exception.